When I think back I remember feeling lonely. I was kidding myself. I have great friends and I know that. But, they can't replace what I have lost. I miss having someone ask me how my day was and what I have planned for tomorrow even if they sound like the same day. I miss the attention, even if it was the wrong attention. I feel like a child. And lastly, I miss my dog.

This isn't where I thought I would be at 31.

I don't mind working. But, I feel like I'm just barely surviving, just staying afloat. I can't see where my future is going. Where will I be in 10 years? Even more alone as my child will be going off to college?

I long for the old days.....